Showing posts from April, 2013

A Moment

A still small voice deep inside
And a voice still ringing in my ear
Come and See

Just writing away on the background for 1 Thessalonians and had a moment with the Lord. Just writing it down.

Much better today with mood dip prevention in the afternoon. I had too much indoor sit time and people time. Good to spend a couple days of recalibration in the sunshine exercising by myself. :)

No one believes I am an introvert, but I am!

Freewrite Ten - "Wellness of Heart"

Yesterday was a down day. I was down Sunday night, but I was fine Monday morning as I worked on Colossians 1 and the incomparable Christ, but by 8:45 am (I got up at 5), I had dipped again. I should have just packed everything up and gone out in the sunshine, but I wanted to finished Colossians 1! So I didn't. I did make dinner in the morning. I ordered our rental car. Contacted all the people in So Cal we need to connect with. I got a lot done (see my list of "TO DO's" that I started the day with), but I was down until I listened to "Dry Salvages" in the Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot (review below). It turned me. Then I walked in the sunshine and lifted weights. That helped. The evening was fine. 

I also got some prayer back up from George, Nancy, and Kim. I think I am just tired from all the people contact on Saturday and Sunday. I really am an introvert at heart. I love to be at home. So, it was good to have a day like yesterday, and I have the day today un…

25. Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot

I read "The Waste Land" for my Well-Educated Mind list, but that was written before Eliot converted to faith in June 1927 and was based on his very unhappy first marriage. Prior to conversion, he was a "modernist poet."
Modernism assumes we live in a post-Christian era. And in the more pessimistic form, which Eliot helped inaugurate, its adherents find few ordering principles for modern life, adopt a general mood of bleak disillusionment, and attack the fallacies and frailties of the day. (Invitation to the Classics, p. 319) Four Quartets are probably his most famous poems after he converted. 
Four Quartets are four interlinked meditations with the common theme being man's relationship with time, the universe, and the divine. In describing his understanding of the divine within the poems, Eliot blends his Anglo-Catholicism with mystical, philosophical and poetic works from both Eastern and Western religious and cultural traditions, with references to the Bhagavad…

24. I am Nujood: Age 10 and Divorced by Nujood Ali

This is a very brave girl from Yemen who was married off at age 10 to a 30 year old man! She bravely went to the Yemeni courts and go married. It reminds me of the Yemeni women I knew who were both married at 12.  This is a fast read and very powerful!

Monday Goals

Goals for Today:

1) Write at least four hours for the Bible Book Club finishing Colossians 1:15-29 and Colossians 2 posts. (Wrote four hours but only made it to Colossians 1:23!)

2) Burn up to 2400 calories and have my low calorie consumptions day (two per week to maintain current weight - Did I state here that I got third place in the SNAP Fitness weight loss challenge and get a month of free membership, T-Shirt, and a water bottle?). Do this by walk with Leslie and cardio on my own. (YES! walked and weights today)

3) Finish Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot and read another ITC book like Treatise on Religious Affections for one hour. (YES! Also wrote two reviews.)

4) Meet with Leslie for two hours. (We postponed)

5) Set up meeting with Jennifer.

6) Rent car (Yes!)

7) Write Terri and Brian for our tentative So Cal schedule (Called Terri and emailed Brian)

I was sad today, but the workout helped.

Endomondo Walking Workout

Endomondo Walking Workout: was out walking 2.66 miles in 30m:00s using Endomondo

23. The Fast Diet

Read this because I saw a news report on it and put it on hold a while ago. It only took one hour to read. Some because I already understand much of the science. 

 I found the research about delaying the onset of Alzheimer’s disease encouraging due to the high probability I will get it (Great grandmother, grandmother, mother all had it BAD). I am going to do this for spiritual/health reasons rather than for weight loss though (That is so nice to say! I am at my goal weight!). I know that full on fasts for days on end are much harder now that I have gotten rid of excess weight. So, this is 5 days of normal eating and 2 days of eating 25% of calories or 500 calories for women and 600 for men. Since the women’s calories are probably based on average shorter height, I am going to go at 25% of my average calorie burn from my BodyBugg which has been 2300 calories the last 30 days. That is 575 calories.

There is a lot of science in this book, but I think most people will find it engaging and d…

Freewrite Fifteen Fret to Focus

Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. Peterson, E. H. (2002). The Message : The Bible in contemporary language (Php 4:6-7). Colorado Springs, Colo.: NavPress.
Sometimes it is hard for me to focus because I fret. Today has already been a whirlwind. Strategizing this morning with George about the major transition in the future, Bible Study with Rachel, walk and processing with Nessa, phone call and prayer with Leslie, rescheduling Michael's Eugene dental appointments because Dr. Over has injured his hand. What's for dinner? Colossians writing and 42 more Bible Book Club posts! Focus. Do the next thing (thank you Elizabeth Elliot). Breathe. Where is the chocolate?

Praying about everythi…

22. The Federalist by Hamilton, Madison, and Jay

I am strange. I never knew that political thought could be so fascinating to me, but it is. Between the Well-Educated Mind and Invitation to the Classics, I have been exposed to some of the classics of political thought!  

Here is a brief summary of what they are all about:

The Federalist Papers are a series of 85 essays that argue for the adoption of the United States Constitution, to replace the Articles of Confederation.Published in three New York newspapers between October 1787 and May 1788, the essays then appeared in newspapers across the nation.They were composed by three different authors:  Alexander Hamilton, John Jay, and James Madison, all under the pseudonym Publius.Today the Federalist Papers serve as a primary source for interpretation of the United States Constitution.As the American experiment unfolds, it is worthwhile to remember how it began. I obtained this summary from an excellent website with FREE Audio © Michael Scherer of all the essays: http://michaelschereraudi…

Friday Freewrite Fifteen

I could barely keep my eyes open at 10:30 pm, but then a hot flash came over me, and they often made me wide awake. That's OK though, I am inspired to press on ahead in the Bible Book Club, and the quietness at midnight is soothing to me. Thankfully, I do not have much going on tomorrow since we decided not to drive to Seattle. At the time we made the decision not to go, we were knee-deep in job transition and taxes. So, it is not a bad thing that we have a free weekend.

So I guess I am just starting work early. LOL! I was going to take a break while my computer keyboard was getting fixed, but I spent a good part of the day installing all the updates for my HP mini that I usually just use for traveling. It is nice to have it all updated because it runs much faster now. I really like this keyboard too. Now that my LOGOS Bible Software is also on my iPhone, I can look things up there as I study. The only disadvantage is that I cannot cut and paste things into the Bible Book Club post…

Invitation to the Classics List Progress

I am on schedule to be done with this list by November 2, 2013! (my anniversary for the other two lists I finished in 2011 and 2012).  
Early Modern 16/21 1633 The Temple – Herbert (1/2 way through)1746 A Treatise Concerning Religious Affections – Edwards (started)1759 Essays and Rasselas – Johnson1791 The Life of Samuel Johnson, LL.D. – Boswell1787 The Federalist – Hamilton, Madison, Jay (#44)
Modern 25/30  1843 Fear and Trembling – Kierkegaard (checked out)1888 Twilight of the Idols – Nietzsche1935 Four Quartets – T.S. Eliot1942 Go Down, Moses – Faulkner 1950 Waiting for God – Weil

21. The Second Shepherds' Play

I meant to read this around Christmas, but I never got around to it. 

This is on my Invitation to the Classics list and often combined with Everyman. It is part of the Wakefield or Towneley Mystery Plays, a series of thirty-two mystery plays based on the Bible most likely performed around the Feast of Corpus Christi probably in the town of Wakefield, England during the late Middle Ages until 1576" (

I read Everyman for theWell-Educated Mind List, but this one was not on that list. It is a short play and not too hard to read if you use a modernized and adapted version. The original version is a bit harder to understand.
Here is a synopsis of the plot:
The play is actually two separate stories presented sequentially; the first is a non-biblical story about a thief, Mak, who steals a sheep from three shepherds. He and his wife, Gill, attempt to deceive the shepherds by pretending the sheep is their son. The shepherds are fooled at first. How…

Today is a Blur Freewrite

When I am uncomfortable, it is hard for me to focus, and I am still uncomfortable with my back. This is a "two appointment" back issue, and I am kicking myself for having lifted the heavier weight for my hamstrings.

Badly done, Carol!
Badly done!

So, I have tried to get better by heat and massage from George and a walk that was cut short because it made it worse.


Now, I am looking at homes in Hillsboro, OR because we might move there someday, but should we knowing that we might move into the house in Newberg, OR someday?

We can take our time to make the decision.

George learned something. One of the job offers that was temporary but might have been stretched out to two years was going to, for sure, only be six months. We would have been under the same incredible stress we have been in since December. The inside person who told us this felt it would be a conflict of interest to tell George (they are personal friends), but that person felt it was fine once he turned down t…

TurboTax Has Lost My Business Forever

I cannot tell you how many things were WRONG that I had to override on the "auto" simplicity of TurboTax. Our return would have been really WRONG had I not dug deeper into some things and changed them. This article is the main reason I will not use it ever again.
How the Maker of TurboTax Fought Free, Simple Tax Filing by Liz Day ProPublica, March 26, 2013, 5 a.m.
This story was co-produced with NPR.
Imagine filing your income taxes in five minutes 2014 and for free. You'd open up a pre-filled return, see what the government thinks you owe, make any needed changes and be done. The miserable annual IRS shuffle, gone.
It's already a reality in Denmark, Sweden and Spain. The government-prepared return would estimate your taxes using information your employer and bank already send it. Advocates say tens of millions of taxpayers could use such a system each year, saving them a collective $2 billion and 225 million hours in prep costs and time, according to one estimate.

Focusing Fifteen Freewrite

I am having a hard time focusing on Ephesians 5 this morning mainly because I am in pain. For the first time since Valentine's Day, my back is definitely out, and I know EXACTLY what I did wrong. I thought I was to a point where I could do the sitting hamstring curl at a heavier weight. It was no problem to lift, but it ALWAYS pulls my S-I joint out! DUH! If I do lift on it, I usually do a VERY light weight! Apparently, I thought I was superwoman, and I am paying the price for my stupidity. I am not going to be able to do much until Doctor Koen can fix me. Darn it! Not smart. Live and learn. 

I had forgotten what it was like to live in pain and discomfort, and I learned something about myself: I eat when I am uncomfortable physically! LIGHTBULB (just sneezed, and it was VERY painful!) moment!!!!

LIVE AND LEARN - do better in the future.

Despite the desire to munch when I am uncomfortable, I am still maintaining my weight even though I am in my "no recording" food phase with…

Chai Tea Free Write

I have the timer on for seven minutes while my chai tea boils every morning, but I never thought to let this be my free write time. That is half the time I usually do, but that is OK because I have done a couple of free writes already this week.

George was so sweet. He helped me organize all the financial papers last night. How romantic to spend from dinner until 9 pm sorting through all those papers. It was good. I am usually so exhausted from handling the taxes that I just dumb them in a drawer and do not cull old papers. We are doing that now. I know we should go paperless, but I like getting a written statement every month. George says he does not mind doing that. So, I am thinking of handing that over to him. He is better at keeping track of investments and passwords than I am.  

We also want to consolidate some of our investments with one company. We have some that do really well and others (usually through banks) that do really poorly. So, I think we are going to roll those babie…

Tax Can Be a Pain, but Then Again . . .

Technically, I finished last Monday at 11:22 pm, but I realized another tax credit that I could take advantage of when I compared our taxes from last year to this year. This will be the LAST year we can possibly take that credit. So, I put in the extra hours to investigate how to take full advantage. It involved some calculations, and I mistakenly started scheduling appointments with women this last week thinking my taxes would be done. I had to do all the figuring with little bits of time here and there and did not have a chunk until Friday afternoon.

Then, I thought I would press the button after that last thing, but the investment services of one of the two financial institutions we needed to make deposits to closed an hour before the rest of the institution.  So, we missed it by a few minutes. (The operator on the phone misinformed me, but I didn't specify which part I needed to go to.) But the reason why we were late was George got out of class and forgot he had to set up one …

20. Apologia Pro Vita Sua by John Henry Newman

Apologia Pro Vita Sua (A Defense of my Life)
by John Henry Newman (1801-1890) A religious autobiography of unsurpassed interest, the simple confidential tone of which "revolutionized the popular estimate of its author," establishing the strength and sincerity of the convictions which had led him into the Roman Catholic Church (Wikipedia)."No autobiography in the English language has been more read; to the nineteenth century it bears a relation not less characteristic than Boswell's 'Johnson' to the eighteenth." Rev. Wm. Barry, D.D.John Henry Newman, (1801-1890) was a Roman Catholic priest and cardinal, a convert from Anglicanism in October 1845. In his early life, he was a major figure in the Oxford Movement to bring the Church of England back to its Catholic roots. Eventually his studies in history persuaded him to become a Roman Catholic. Both before and after becoming a Roman Catholic, he wrote influential books, including Via Media, Essay on the Devel…

Last 30 Days - 813 daily deficit

This is how I have been for the last 30 days based on my weight measurement change:
Last 30 days > Wed, Mar 6 - Thu, Apr 4 Calories

daily average 2342 102(% Calories
Based on
Food Log Measurement Changes 1529 66% Calorie

daily average 813 DEFICIT  FOOD LOGGING was -----------------------869DEFICIT I underreported by -------56 – not bad considering I was trying to loosen up on weighing and measuring and doing it more by memory! I am encouraged!

Thursday Thirteen Freewrite

I am just going to let my fingers do the walking on this freewrite. I do not particularly have any agenda, but I felt like I needed to update in writing all the things that were whirling around me.

Job for George and Taxes

George got an email last Friday the 29th saying that he was selected for the job he interviewed for on March 18. He was going to get a formal offer on Monday. When it did not come he called, and the PR person said that upper management wanted them to interview one more person. Say what? It did not help that I was RIGHT in the middle of doing the Oregon College Savings Plan (529) portion of our taxes (the last thing I needed to do), and I realized, after considerable digging in the "fine print" of the Oregon College Plan site and the IRS tax code, that our withdrawals from it for Michael's "vocational school" were not eligible! FINE PRINT. Also, that was put into effect in 2002, after we had opened the savings plan for Michael. The reason it is …