Mark it on your calendar that Carol feels blah.
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I had a great time with God this morning. George went to have breakfast with his brother and is spending the day doing things for his 95-year-old mom.
Then mid-morning I decided to get a sub for Pilates and just stay home.
I have tried for the last two hours to find a sub, and only one person responded with a "no." I subbed for her last February, and she couldn't sub for me when I needed someone in the spring, but she left the university. She owes me a sub or compensation for my time, but she seems very unwilling. Sigh.
When I taught for seven years before my first retirement, I subbed several times for someone who never paid me back, and then she retired. After that, I decided that my time was valuable, and I would require people to pay me or sub for me. Now I know that the next time I sub, I will make sure we are clear that I expect to be paid or for them to sub for one of my classes, and if they leave the university, they need to pay me. This person has no compulsion to do so.
So that made me feel more blah.
Then I found out a saint in my church died yesterday.
NEWSFLASH: I had to stop my freewrite because a blessed coworker is covering for me today! I am free for the whole day today and tomorrow. I will take one of those days to catch up on some work and the other for a total Sabbath.
YAY!
I was evaluating the last month, and it has been full (albeit full-filling).
Time with God has been SO SWEET. I love going through the Exercises. Ed did lead yesterday. He never volunteered last year, but we are co-leading. So, I asked him to lead this month. But I still had to send the link, save the transcript, and monitor the timer. It wasn't a total rest for me from leading, but it was great to just listen, and that was really good for me to do. He did a great job. It was also on the heels of leading a 19th Annotation time the day before. This is one of the few times when these two groups will be on the same week.
Group spiritual direction takes more energy for me, but I love it. These are great groups in both camps. The one I lead monthly with Ed took me a little more time to get used to. The 19th Annotation is all the people I have spent time with over the last year (and one of them from two years ago).
All that to say, I am reminded that I am a true introvert. People are always surprised, but I know when I am peopled out. I think that was why I didn't want to go and teach my class today.
Also, there is one student who is a complainer, and I just don't do well with complainers. I have had so few of them in all the years that I have taught, but this woman is very verbal. She is not mean about it, but she lets herself be heard ("The music is too loud. I don't like music at all. I don't like bands because it takes so long to adjust them, and you do only five repetitions then I miss the exercise because it took so long to set my band up, etc." - for the record, we do more than five repetitions, and I give them plenty of time to adjust their bands, but I digress.) I had no complaining people last year, and that was nice.
I realized that I was tuckered out from the unexpected teaching on Sunday. It was SO FUN, but I missed a restful Sabbath so I could prepare for Sunday.
I also had two last-minute direction sessions. I don't usually do this last minute, but I sensed God wanted me to, and I was so blessed. I had another session that was longer than usual because of a last-minute decision to do a typing interview. So that added things. Live and learn!
Also, I am on week two of five weeks in a row of the Spiritual Accompaniment of Children class. Before that, we had two weeks and then a break. Then three weeks in a row followed by breaks. I have learned so much in this class, but I am on Week 7 out of 12 and look forward to it being over.
We also have more PDF readings of many pages for the second half of the course. I find PDFs more difficult to read. I did have the idea to send the PDFs to my Kindle Scribe. That makes notetaking right on the document much easier.
Also, the people in my group are not committed to meeting with their children for spiritual direction and doing their reflection forms. So, last week, I was the only person who shared in the group from a session. I wonder if I am the only one seeking a certification in this? Maybe so.
It might be better to separate the people according to those going for certification and those who are not. I might feel more challenged and encouraged. Neither person in my group is a spiritual director, and I thought it was a course for spiritual directors. That was my mistake for not reading the fine print. I do love meeting with the kids, and I like my supervisor.
I am so relieved I don't have to teach today.
There is the bell! Good Friday FREEwrite!
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