A life is like a garden. Perfect moments can be had, but not preserved, except in memory. LLAP
— Leonard Nimoy (@TheRealNimoy) February 23, 2015
"What makes the desert beautiful is that somewhere it hides a well" (The Little Prince by de Saint-Exupéry). My journey to a WELL-adjusted heart, WELL-watered soul, WELL-educated mind, and WELL-tuned body. "Love the Lord your God with all your HEART, and with all your SOUL, and with all your MIND, and with all your STRENGTH" (Mark 12:30-31).
Friday, February 27, 2015
RIP Leonard Nimoy: His last Tweet
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Tuesday Freewrite
I have not done one of these in a very long time. So, I am watching the clock and typing non-stop for fifteen minutes.
I think I needed the extra day to be mostly by myself. I was gone from Wednesday to Sunday on a snowshoe/cross-country ski trip to Idaho with Debbie, and her husband Ralph. It was beautiful at a Yurt 7600 feet up and above a cute little lodge out of Ketchum called Galena. We drove all day on Wednesday through the beautiful Columbia Gorge and Eastern Oregon. I love that drive. It never gets old, and I have not done it for a few years (2011 was the last time). Thursday we packed up and headed to Galena Lodge. It took most of the day. We had two sleds and two backpacks and went up to the "Star's Perch" Yurt. It holds eight people, but there were only four of us. We slept pretty well except the middle of the night potty breaks which Debbie made hilariously funny. We ate well too (Soup and rolls on Thursday night). On Friday we got up and went to a trail that led to Alturas Lake (four miles in and four miles out). George snowshoed, and I cross-country skied in. Pretty good for me since I had not done it for 29 years other than around the neighborhood. I only fell three times, and that was more trying to go up an icy hill twice. By the end of the time, I was not falling down trying to go up hills. If it was too steep up or down, I just took off my skis and walked! LOL! I burned 3717 calories that day, only one calorie less than my record going downhill while backpacking with Debbie last time I was in Idaho. It was less of a calorie burn because my total time last Friday was over six hours whereas the backpacking was only about four hours.
What is so great is that I was not even sore doing an exercise I have not done in so many years, and this shows me that I am in good overall shape. It has helped to do Pilates and a little bit of weight-lifting. I just had a little pain at the inside of my left leg, and my massage therapist thinks that maybe something got a bit out of join from falling.
Speaking of my massage therapist. Today was my last time with Jennifer. She is having a baby and then moving to New York. I cried. She gave me a hug. I should have brought her a baby gift, but I did not get around to it.
I was supposed to meet with two girls today, but I woke up with a sore throat, and I did not want to get them sick. I think it was allergies though because I feel pretty good now, but I do not think it a bad idea to give myself two days of mostly time alone after those days of intense time with people. I love my "I" time, and if I overload myself with people, I do get sick! I love people (High "F"), but I have to limit the amount of time I spend with them.
I am also almost done with the editing and transferring to Word of the Bible Book Club! I am in Titus 1, and I estimate I have about 24 more hours of editing to do, and I will be done! That is almost every day for the last 7 years and 2 months! What a valuable thing. I have loved every single minute and have never regretted my decision to go through the whole Bible a chapter at a time: reading, giving background, reflecting, applying, and responding in prayer. It is my magnum opus!
Well, now I am watching the news. I am trying to catch up with it all. I love my life. I love my family. Paul is sick, and I am taking him to his midterm at 8:30 pm because the buses do not run that late. I feel so bad for him being sick and being in the middle of midterms. Poor guy.
Well, I think it has been at least 15 minutes. Bye!
I think I needed the extra day to be mostly by myself. I was gone from Wednesday to Sunday on a snowshoe/cross-country ski trip to Idaho with Debbie, and her husband Ralph. It was beautiful at a Yurt 7600 feet up and above a cute little lodge out of Ketchum called Galena. We drove all day on Wednesday through the beautiful Columbia Gorge and Eastern Oregon. I love that drive. It never gets old, and I have not done it for a few years (2011 was the last time). Thursday we packed up and headed to Galena Lodge. It took most of the day. We had two sleds and two backpacks and went up to the "Star's Perch" Yurt. It holds eight people, but there were only four of us. We slept pretty well except the middle of the night potty breaks which Debbie made hilariously funny. We ate well too (Soup and rolls on Thursday night). On Friday we got up and went to a trail that led to Alturas Lake (four miles in and four miles out). George snowshoed, and I cross-country skied in. Pretty good for me since I had not done it for 29 years other than around the neighborhood. I only fell three times, and that was more trying to go up an icy hill twice. By the end of the time, I was not falling down trying to go up hills. If it was too steep up or down, I just took off my skis and walked! LOL! I burned 3717 calories that day, only one calorie less than my record going downhill while backpacking with Debbie last time I was in Idaho. It was less of a calorie burn because my total time last Friday was over six hours whereas the backpacking was only about four hours.
What is so great is that I was not even sore doing an exercise I have not done in so many years, and this shows me that I am in good overall shape. It has helped to do Pilates and a little bit of weight-lifting. I just had a little pain at the inside of my left leg, and my massage therapist thinks that maybe something got a bit out of join from falling.
Speaking of my massage therapist. Today was my last time with Jennifer. She is having a baby and then moving to New York. I cried. She gave me a hug. I should have brought her a baby gift, but I did not get around to it.
I was supposed to meet with two girls today, but I woke up with a sore throat, and I did not want to get them sick. I think it was allergies though because I feel pretty good now, but I do not think it a bad idea to give myself two days of mostly time alone after those days of intense time with people. I love my "I" time, and if I overload myself with people, I do get sick! I love people (High "F"), but I have to limit the amount of time I spend with them.
I am also almost done with the editing and transferring to Word of the Bible Book Club! I am in Titus 1, and I estimate I have about 24 more hours of editing to do, and I will be done! That is almost every day for the last 7 years and 2 months! What a valuable thing. I have loved every single minute and have never regretted my decision to go through the whole Bible a chapter at a time: reading, giving background, reflecting, applying, and responding in prayer. It is my magnum opus!
Well, now I am watching the news. I am trying to catch up with it all. I love my life. I love my family. Paul is sick, and I am taking him to his midterm at 8:30 pm because the buses do not run that late. I feel so bad for him being sick and being in the middle of midterms. Poor guy.
Well, I think it has been at least 15 minutes. Bye!
Monday, January 26, 2015
1. Living in Christ's Presence by Dallas Willard and John Ortberg
This book is a transcript of a video series that I purchased. It is the last conference Dallas Willard ever gave and is on his "final words on heaven and the Kingdom of God." It is precious, and my friends borrow my DVD series so much that I decided to buy the book on my Kindle so I could always have it! I like having the written down version because I wrap my mind around it a bit better. Sometimes he can be difficult to read, but he was not difficult to listen to. Consequently, this transcript of the video series will be easier to grasp. John Ortberg's talks are also quite good as I have always joked that John Ortberg's books were "Dallas Willard for Dummies" because Dallas sometimes is hard to grasp! The interviews with Ortberg and Willard are also excellent.
Dallas Willard was a seasoned saint and had so much to say about Christ-likeness! I ate up both the DVD series and this book.
Here are just a few quotes:
We have been through a period when the dominant theology simply had nothing to do with discipleship. It had to do with proper belief, with God seeing to it that individuals didn’t go to the bad place, but to the good place. But that developed in such a way that the predominant thought is that a person can have the worst character possible and still get into the good place if he believed the right thing. This disconnection became increasingly burdensome to the church itself until we came to the point that, as is widely discussed, there is not a clear difference between Christians and those who aren’t Christians.
Willard, Dallas; Ortberg, John (2013-12-26). Living in Christ's Presence: Final Words on Heaven and the Kingdom of God (p. 10). InterVarsity Press. Kindle Edition.
Spiritual transformation is not about behavior modification. It is about changing the sources of behavior, so the behavior will take care of itself. When the mind is right and the heart is right and the body and the soul and the relationships that we have in our social world are right, the whole person simply steps into the way of Christ and lives there with joy and strength. It is not a struggle. One of the lies about the spiritual life is that it is hard. No, no. It is not hard. It is the easy way.
Willard, Dallas; Ortberg, John (2013-12-26). Living in Christ's Presence: Final Words on Heaven and the Kingdom of God (p. 14). InterVarsity Press. Kindle Edition.
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Jane Eyre and my Trapdoor Band of Beauties
“I climbed the three staircases, raised the trapdoor of the attic, and having reached the leads, looked out afar over sequestered field and hill, and along dim skyline—that then I longed for a power of vision which might overpass that limit; which might reach the busy world, towns, regions full of life I had heard of but never seen—that then I desired more of practical experience than I possessed; more of intercourse with my kind, of acquaintance with variety of character, than was here within my reach.”
Saturday, January 10, 2015
I Am Always More Spiritual in the Mornings . . .
. . . and then the "worries of the world" take over (Mark 4:19). After that glorious post yesterday morning of Kingdom Focus (Matthew 6:33), I was faced with some stressful points of my day! Suzanne emailed me about getting together with Kellie and Jamie in Phoenix, Nathan said the worship leader for next week's conference was not able to do it, people asking to get together with me last minute and coming over at 11:45. That means two meetings back to back (ended up being five hours of meeting time). Oh my, I have to get all this stuff done for next weekend before they come. Oh, Suzanne, you have been sending emails, and they have not arrived? Oh yes, my husband has never installed the software for the remote desktop to access that particular email account. I wonder how many letters have gone there that we have not responded to.
Then the uncertainty of working with "P" personality types made me wonder: What will we do for a rental car next weekend? Where are we going to sleep? Did Chris mean he would pick us up at the airport when he said, "Have van will travel?"
Oh yes, and in the back of my mind is: "I might have cancer!" I need my husband home. I write him a text, and we have a tearful exchange before my 11:45 am comes popping in the door. I am tearful with her when I realize that when she said, "I'll bring lunch" she meant "I'll bring my lunch." So, I go to divide what she has brought, and she looks at me quizzically, "Well, I guess you can have half of my banana." Oh, she didn't say she would bring lunch for both of us. Shoot. I thought that is what she meant. Feel stupid. Feel frazzled. I cry.
It was good. She needs to see me the "mentor" in a more vulnerable state. She needed to understand that this whole "spots" thing could be really serious. It may not be, but it will be a while before I know. So, it is a waiting game.
Oh yes, "seek first His Kingdom." Seek Jesus first (because He is the face of the Kingdom). Good time of talking and good for those I mentor to see me vulnerable.
Encouraged by Renee's email. Yes, she is being impacted by our little Kingdom Band. She writes it in her letter to all of her friends. (Lord, help me not to forgot about getting together with Katherine. She is always so strong, but I do not want to overlook her because I was always overlooked because of my strength!)
Delegation made to George. He will talk to the worship leader (I think we are going with iPad worship next weekend). He will talk to Chris about picking us up. Suzanne is willing to be super flexible about meeting with Jamie and Kellie, but it looks like Sunday night is a possibility. I am the middle person about the schedule. Good she went straight to the source since she works in the same office, and I do not.
Listen to an NPR thing about melanoma diagnosis between Jamie and Kellie. Feeling better about it. Wish I had taken a picture of the spot before she took it out with the biopsy.
George calls to say he is coming home early. He will stay home more instead of living with his mom. I am independent, but I need him. He brings me a salmon salad with hazelnuts, and we all eat Burgerville together and talk. Family is the best. News together and bed. Sleep like a baby where I could not fall asleep the night before because I felt all alone and missed my husband on the weeknights. There is always a withdrawal after his long vacations. Cancer scare exacerbates that. (Isn't that word exacerbates a great word?)
Seeking Jesus again this morning. But then again, I am always more spiritual in the mornings. :) Worries of the world be gone all day today.
Then the uncertainty of working with "P" personality types made me wonder: What will we do for a rental car next weekend? Where are we going to sleep? Did Chris mean he would pick us up at the airport when he said, "Have van will travel?"
Oh yes, and in the back of my mind is: "I might have cancer!" I need my husband home. I write him a text, and we have a tearful exchange before my 11:45 am comes popping in the door. I am tearful with her when I realize that when she said, "I'll bring lunch" she meant "I'll bring my lunch." So, I go to divide what she has brought, and she looks at me quizzically, "Well, I guess you can have half of my banana." Oh, she didn't say she would bring lunch for both of us. Shoot. I thought that is what she meant. Feel stupid. Feel frazzled. I cry.
It was good. She needs to see me the "mentor" in a more vulnerable state. She needed to understand that this whole "spots" thing could be really serious. It may not be, but it will be a while before I know. So, it is a waiting game.
Oh yes, "seek first His Kingdom." Seek Jesus first (because He is the face of the Kingdom). Good time of talking and good for those I mentor to see me vulnerable.
Encouraged by Renee's email. Yes, she is being impacted by our little Kingdom Band. She writes it in her letter to all of her friends. (Lord, help me not to forgot about getting together with Katherine. She is always so strong, but I do not want to overlook her because I was always overlooked because of my strength!)
Delegation made to George. He will talk to the worship leader (I think we are going with iPad worship next weekend). He will talk to Chris about picking us up. Suzanne is willing to be super flexible about meeting with Jamie and Kellie, but it looks like Sunday night is a possibility. I am the middle person about the schedule. Good she went straight to the source since she works in the same office, and I do not.
Listen to an NPR thing about melanoma diagnosis between Jamie and Kellie. Feeling better about it. Wish I had taken a picture of the spot before she took it out with the biopsy.
George calls to say he is coming home early. He will stay home more instead of living with his mom. I am independent, but I need him. He brings me a salmon salad with hazelnuts, and we all eat Burgerville together and talk. Family is the best. News together and bed. Sleep like a baby where I could not fall asleep the night before because I felt all alone and missed my husband on the weeknights. There is always a withdrawal after his long vacations. Cancer scare exacerbates that. (Isn't that word exacerbates a great word?)
Seeking Jesus again this morning. But then again, I am always more spiritual in the mornings. :) Worries of the world be gone all day today.
Friday, January 09, 2015
On Seeking First God's Kingdom
The meaning of Matt 16:19 is, therefore, not fundamentally different from Matt. 6:33: "Seek more than anything else to act with the kingdom of God and to have His kind of goodness, and all else you need will be added." (paraphrase) Or Romans 8:32: "He who did not spare his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things." (NAS) Or the well-known Philipians 4:19: "And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus." (NAS)
But if the abundance is here, enough even to defeat the "Gates of Hell," why are we not thriving in it? The answer is that we have a key to the keys. The abundance of God to our lives, our families and our ministries is not passively received or imposed and does not happen to us by chance, but is claimed and put into action by our active, intelligent pursuit of it. We must seek out ways to live and act in union with the flow of God's kingdom life that should come through our relationship with Jesus.
There is, of course, no question of doing this purely on our own. But we must act. Grace is opposed to earning, not to effort. And it is well-directed, decisive and sustained effort that is the key to the keys of the kingdom and to the life of restful power in ministry that those keys can open to us.
(The Great Omission:Reclaiming Jesus's Essential Teachings on Discipleship by Dallas Willard, p. 33-34)
Not to be morbid in any way, but it is so interesting to read everything I read this morning in light of possibly facing the end of this life. The biopsy came back "inconclusive" with "darker than normal" cells. Therefore, I am having a surgery to remove it with margins. It will be interesting to see what she finds. It may or may not be melanoma. If it is, it may have been caught early. It may be in my body in other places. But seeking His Kingdom is the focus. I am not afraid of death, and I am grateful He has put it in my heart to be a Kingdom Seeker! :)
Thursday, January 08, 2015
Freedom of Speech and Opinion
Break one, thousand will rise #CharlieHebdo #JeSuisCharlie #raiseyourpencilforfreedom pic.twitter.com/3n5fOEmrwJ
— Lucille Clerc (@LucilleClerc) January 7, 2015
I agree with Voltaire:
Sunday, January 04, 2015
Sunday Morning Freewrite
I am going to use different font on this blog depending on my mood. :)
It is 12:29 am, and I am sort of in a rebellious mood saying, "I am not going to go to bed!" Basically, this will be the last day of my vacation, and I am fighting it! Michael will go back to SOU tomorrow, and George goes back to work on Tuesday.
WAHHHHH! I do not want our family time to be over yet!
I have been working most of the vacation, but the Bible Book Club/Gospel Harmony Book Club is fun work!
I have not done as much communicating by email though. I have tried to just be with the family and be all here! That has been very good.
I have also been working on pictures. The boys put all their pictures in their books through the end of 2013 and chose all their picture for 2014! I just need to upload all of their pictures for the year before Tuesday when Shutterfly's sale ends.
Now to see if I can make the deadline for my pictures from our River Cruise! That is going to be hard. It will be nice to relive the memories though, but 60% of our pictures of 2014 are from that cruise. So, I have a feeling it is going to be about 300 pictures! But, I have done that many in the past. It is only 1,000 pictures to wade through, and I waded through 10,000 from 2007. So, quit your whining Carol Ann!
I am not worrying about the biopsies. What will be, will be!
I face the future with wide-eyed wonder and excitement about what is around the corner!
Now, back to my pictures!
Happy New Year from the Weavers! (Click on it if you want to see it in a larger size)
It is 12:29 am, and I am sort of in a rebellious mood saying, "I am not going to go to bed!" Basically, this will be the last day of my vacation, and I am fighting it! Michael will go back to SOU tomorrow, and George goes back to work on Tuesday.
WAHHHHH! I do not want our family time to be over yet!
I have been working most of the vacation, but the Bible Book Club/Gospel Harmony Book Club is fun work!
I have not done as much communicating by email though. I have tried to just be with the family and be all here! That has been very good.
I have also been working on pictures. The boys put all their pictures in their books through the end of 2013 and chose all their picture for 2014! I just need to upload all of their pictures for the year before Tuesday when Shutterfly's sale ends.
Now to see if I can make the deadline for my pictures from our River Cruise! That is going to be hard. It will be nice to relive the memories though, but 60% of our pictures of 2014 are from that cruise. So, I have a feeling it is going to be about 300 pictures! But, I have done that many in the past. It is only 1,000 pictures to wade through, and I waded through 10,000 from 2007. So, quit your whining Carol Ann!
I am not worrying about the biopsies. What will be, will be!
I face the future with wide-eyed wonder and excitement about what is around the corner!
Now, back to my pictures!
Happy New Year from the Weavers! (Click on it if you want to see it in a larger size)
Thursday, January 01, 2015
My Lord and Me 2014
I always have a day of prayer at the end of the year to evaluate it and set some goals for the next year.
Nine of us met at Tri-Delta Sorority at 9 am on December 31, 2014. Teala is the house mom there, and we think we have done this for eighteen year now (with two years off in 1997-98 because we were in Malaysia). Kim, Katherine, Joanne, George, Jordan, Jamie, and Nancy joined us with everyone but Kim, Katherine, and Nancy staying to the end. We had a nice time of evaluation with a theme of God being KING and us being His prince and princesses. Pretty cool when we gathered to talk about our time.
God had given me Matthew 6:33-34 a couple of days before the time, it was confirmed when I got up to read and review Matthew 6 in the Bible Book Club:
When I reviewed 2014 Days of Prayer (Nine - two partial days; two 48 hour; and five full days) and into the prior year, I found some great themes. Matthew 6 had popped up on March 7, 2014 in The Message version:
MIND (well-educated intellect)
7. Willard Writings - Living in Christ's Presence and The Great Omission
8. Tolstoy - Christian writings including Resurrection
9. Read 52 books and post reviews on my blog
STRENGTH (well-tuned body)
10. 1000 Cal deficit until my injury weight is off (5-9 pounds?)
11. 2400 Cal burn with 5-15 of VIGOROUS cardio, 5x a week
12. Strength and Stretching daily
LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF
13. TOAG/Listening Leaders Discipleship - weekly TOAG time and every other week with various members
14. BBC: Jesus January - April 5. Disciples April 5 to end
15. Creation to Christ studies and storying with seekers
I also evaluated my highs and lows:
LOWS (in order of "lowness")
1) Boldness backfiring into a conflict (August)
2) Husband of #4 blasting me and feeling very scared (August)
3) Miscommunication with two ladies (September - sleepless nights, but ended up with a really healthy resolution! Sort of a high then! )
4) Woman I had invested in all year filing for divorce (September)
5) Possible skin cancer (December)
HIGHS
1) Grand European River Cruise (May-June) - "The Hiding Place" in the Ten Boom house, Passau bike ride along Danube into Austria, Vienna Mozart and Stauss Concert, Dancing on the Danube in Regensburg:
And arriving in Budapest at night:
2) Fabulous Fall Reboot of TOAG that resulted in WOW Women! (glad we postponed since August and September ended up containing most of my "lows"!)
3) Studying Creation, Adam, Noah, and Abraham with my friend (Summer)
4) Listening prayer breakthroughs (all year)
5) Healing of friends (September on)
6) Jon Thurlow Soothing Worship times
At 1 pm, I went for a 8.1 mile walk (I lost track because I was deep in prayer and worship of God's beauty all around me - what a way to end the year!!), and I evaluated and prayed through my #1 Low of the year for the first 2.5 miles! This Low related to #2/4 because I had shared how emotionally devastating it was for the husband to be so rude to me on the phone, but it was not even acknowledged. It was enlightening, and I did what I felt was a healthy thing living out my "boldly beloved" destiny, being honest about how my feelings had been hurt. I was fearful to do it, and it came across as angry (which has happened to me in the past, but it had not happened for several years).
In evaluating, I realized I did not "listen and obey"! Whether I forgot or was too afraid to obey, when I reviewed my day of prayer from August 14, God had specifically told me to say, "No" to this friend (cannot go into the details of what that was about). I did not do that, and it ended up coming to a head 10 days later with my feelings being hurt.
The problem would have been avoided had I just obeyed that! I should have LISTENED AND OBEYED! She just was not in a position to give anything to me emotionally when I really needed it, and in the subsequent conflict resolution, it came to be all my responsibility to "tell her when I am feeling pressured/controlled by her. I had a responsibility to simply say, "No" up front. Then there would have been no room for pressure or control. I felt like if I had just obeyed in the first place, the conflict would not have happened. I cannot expect anything in the way of emotional support when I am down (which is pretty rare). So, she cannot be one of my "go to" girls when the chips are down. I have others who can fill that place. That is why we have more than one friend! Good evaluation time!
Thankfully the 2.5 miles of struggling through that was followed by 5.5 miles of adoring the beautiful, sunny day and praying for others God brought to mind. Then I prayed in Kelly Engineering building on campus (home of my son's major and the major of many of the seekers I am investing in!)
I came back to wrap up my day of prayer in joy. What a great day!
There are more verses I feel that will guide the year: I feel like God gave me some nice words:
Psalm 92:12-15 - His promise of a fruitful, long life
Mark 6:31 - "If you do not 'come apart', you will 'come apart'" (quote form the Trappist Abbey pamphlet on private retreats)
Mark 12:30-31 (that is above in this blog)
My 2015 FRUITFUL FIVE
1) WORSHIP/WORLD WALK and WORD WRITING
2) WONDERFUL WEAVERS life and home investment
3) WOW WOMEN (Launch them in LOVE!)
4) WICKEDNESS WAKE UP AND WALK AWAY (Ps 91:14-16)
5. WILLARD AND WRITERS
Well there were words for people I need to give, but that is all for now!
One last thing, I realized I would be 55 years, 5 months, and 5 days old today! LOL!
TA TA!
Nine of us met at Tri-Delta Sorority at 9 am on December 31, 2014. Teala is the house mom there, and we think we have done this for eighteen year now (with two years off in 1997-98 because we were in Malaysia). Kim, Katherine, Joanne, George, Jordan, Jamie, and Nancy joined us with everyone but Kim, Katherine, and Nancy staying to the end. We had a nice time of evaluation with a theme of God being KING and us being His prince and princesses. Pretty cool when we gathered to talk about our time.
God had given me Matthew 6:33-34 a couple of days before the time, it was confirmed when I got up to read and review Matthew 6 in the Bible Book Club:
But seek first
His kingdom
and
His righteousness;
and all these things shall be added to you.
Therefore, do not be anxious
for tomorrow;
for tomorrow will care for itself
each day has enough trouble of its own.
When I reviewed 2014 Days of Prayer (Nine - two partial days; two 48 hour; and five full days) and into the prior year, I found some great themes. Matthew 6 had popped up on March 7, 2014 in The Message version:
STEEP your life in God-reality (God's present kingdom),
God-initiative, God-provisions,
Don't worry about missing out.
You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now,
and don't get worked up
about what may or may not happen tomorrow.
God will help you deal with whatever
hard things come up when the time comes.
STEEPing tea is the vision that Amanda had of me when we were listening to God for each other in February 2014 (I guess I could count that as a 48 hour retreat, but it was ;mostly group prayer). She did not even know I loved tea! Her words were "tea steeping, longer steeping, leaves soaking, strength from steeping, waiting, training.
So this "King's daughter who is all glorious within" (Psalm 45) will "Seek FIRST" His kingdom this year.
I developed a detailed "SEEK FIRST 2015 FIFTEEN"
HEART (well-adjusted emotions)
1. FUN with the LORD (take pictures of His creation, write)
2. FUN with my family (Yellowstone, France and Camino de Santiago for George and I)
3. FUN with faithful friends
SOUL (well-watered spiritual life)
4. Soak in the LIFE of Jesus - What did He say and do? (Jan-Easter)
5. Worship, World, and Weaver Prayer Walks (3x day) Seek God for the City 2015 for Lent
6. "LOW" - Listen and Obey God and WRITE it down (LOW journal?) Found this quote from a previous day of prayer, but I am not sure where I found it. I was in the Upper Room in Salem at the time:
"This world does not change because you do not change. But the world can change if you change.
How can you change?
By listening to God. For God is always speaking, just as the sun is always shining. In the morning before distractions and problems of the day, you can listen to God
How can you listen?
Here is the answers: you write it down. Write it down so that you can listen better, and you can remember His words." Father GratryBeing a notoriously forgetful person, writing down what God tells me has been a great thing this year! The shower/tub crayon has been a boon to my existence (and probably a pain to my housecleaner!).
MIND (well-educated intellect)
7. Willard Writings - Living in Christ's Presence and The Great Omission
8. Tolstoy - Christian writings including Resurrection
9. Read 52 books and post reviews on my blog
STRENGTH (well-tuned body)
10. 1000 Cal deficit until my injury weight is off (5-9 pounds?)
11. 2400 Cal burn with 5-15 of VIGOROUS cardio, 5x a week
12. Strength and Stretching daily
LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF
13. TOAG/Listening Leaders Discipleship - weekly TOAG time and every other week with various members
14. BBC: Jesus January - April 5. Disciples April 5 to end
15. Creation to Christ studies and storying with seekers
I also evaluated my highs and lows:
LOWS (in order of "lowness")
1) Boldness backfiring into a conflict (August)
2) Husband of #4 blasting me and feeling very scared (August)
3) Miscommunication with two ladies (September - sleepless nights, but ended up with a really healthy resolution! Sort of a high then! )
4) Woman I had invested in all year filing for divorce (September)
5) Possible skin cancer (December)
HIGHS
1) Grand European River Cruise (May-June) - "The Hiding Place" in the Ten Boom house, Passau bike ride along Danube into Austria, Vienna Mozart and Stauss Concert, Dancing on the Danube in Regensburg:
And arriving in Budapest at night:
2) Fabulous Fall Reboot of TOAG that resulted in WOW Women! (glad we postponed since August and September ended up containing most of my "lows"!)
3) Studying Creation, Adam, Noah, and Abraham with my friend (Summer)
4) Listening prayer breakthroughs (all year)
5) Healing of friends (September on)
6) Jon Thurlow Soothing Worship times
At 1 pm, I went for a 8.1 mile walk (I lost track because I was deep in prayer and worship of God's beauty all around me - what a way to end the year!!), and I evaluated and prayed through my #1 Low of the year for the first 2.5 miles! This Low related to #2/4 because I had shared how emotionally devastating it was for the husband to be so rude to me on the phone, but it was not even acknowledged. It was enlightening, and I did what I felt was a healthy thing living out my "boldly beloved" destiny, being honest about how my feelings had been hurt. I was fearful to do it, and it came across as angry (which has happened to me in the past, but it had not happened for several years).
In evaluating, I realized I did not "listen and obey"! Whether I forgot or was too afraid to obey, when I reviewed my day of prayer from August 14, God had specifically told me to say, "No" to this friend (cannot go into the details of what that was about). I did not do that, and it ended up coming to a head 10 days later with my feelings being hurt.
The problem would have been avoided had I just obeyed that! I should have LISTENED AND OBEYED! She just was not in a position to give anything to me emotionally when I really needed it, and in the subsequent conflict resolution, it came to be all my responsibility to "tell her when I am feeling pressured/controlled by her. I had a responsibility to simply say, "No" up front. Then there would have been no room for pressure or control. I felt like if I had just obeyed in the first place, the conflict would not have happened. I cannot expect anything in the way of emotional support when I am down (which is pretty rare). So, she cannot be one of my "go to" girls when the chips are down. I have others who can fill that place. That is why we have more than one friend! Good evaluation time!
Thankfully the 2.5 miles of struggling through that was followed by 5.5 miles of adoring the beautiful, sunny day and praying for others God brought to mind. Then I prayed in Kelly Engineering building on campus (home of my son's major and the major of many of the seekers I am investing in!)
There are more verses I feel that will guide the year: I feel like God gave me some nice words:
Psalm 92:12-15 - His promise of a fruitful, long life
Mark 6:31 - "If you do not 'come apart', you will 'come apart'" (quote form the Trappist Abbey pamphlet on private retreats)
Mark 12:30-31 (that is above in this blog)
My 2015 FRUITFUL FIVE
1) WORSHIP/WORLD WALK and WORD WRITING
2) WONDERFUL WEAVERS life and home investment
3) WOW WOMEN (Launch them in LOVE!)
4) WICKEDNESS WAKE UP AND WALK AWAY (Ps 91:14-16)
5. WILLARD AND WRITERS
Well there were words for people I need to give, but that is all for now!
One last thing, I realized I would be 55 years, 5 months, and 5 days old today! LOL!
TA TA!
2014 Moves, Series, Non-Fiction
My goals is always to read more books than watch movies, but they almost tied this year!
Favorite movies:
It's a Wonderful Life (rewatch) One Hundred Foot Journey (new)
Favorite series: Downton Abbey Series 4
Favorite non-fiction: Living in Christ's Presence (Willard's finest!)
Least Favorite movie: Wild (unnecessary sex and language)
JANUARY
1. Batman Returns
2. Not Today
3. Batman Begins
4. Downton Abbey Series 4
FEBRUARY
5. Sherlock Series 3
6. 2016: Obama's America
7. Downton Abbey Series 4 (rewatch)
MARCH
8. All the President's Men
9. The Muppets
10. Doctor Who: The Snowmen
APRIL
11. Doctor Who Season 7, Part II
12. Doctor Who 50th Anniversary Specials
MAY
13. The Great Gatsby (2013)
14. Saving Mr. Banks
15. Monuments Men
16. 42
JUNE
17. Frozen
18. Muppets: Most Wanted
19. The Book Thief
20. The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug
21. Oregon Experience - Oregon Wines: Grapes of Place
22. The Bible Mini Series
23. Miss Potter
24. Rick Steves Europe - France, England, Scotland
JULY
25. Cold Mountain (ClearPlay for a couple of scenes!)
26. Osama Bin Laden: A Decade to Justice
27. Zero-Dark Thirty (language warning but fascinating)
28. Rick Steves British Isles
29. Tangled
30. Coraline (amazing stop motion but macabre)
AUGUST
31. Magic in the Moonlight
32. Be Still (Contemplative Prayer)
33. The Hundred Foot Journey
SEPTEMBER
34. Living in Christ's Presence (Willard)
OCTOBER
35. The Bletchley Circle Series 2
36. House of Cards Series 2 (Clear Play It)
37. American Beauty (Clear Play It)
38. Skyfall
39. Ella Enchanted
NOVEMBER
40. Gilmore Girls Seasons 1,4-7
41. The Paradise Season 2
42. Rick Steves' Europe 2013-2014 (11 new shows)
DECEMBER
43. Sons of Mistletoe
44. The Mystery of Edwin Drood
45. It's a Wonderful Life
46. Rick Steves' European Christmas
47. Wild (not wildly impressed - too much sexuality that distracted from the story)
48. Gilmore Girls Season 2
49. Muppet Christmas Carol
50. Million Dollar Arm
51. Moms' Day Out
Saturday, December 27, 2014
Friday Freewrite Fifteen
I woke up very early this morning, and I have been meditating in Matthew 3-6 for the last two hours, and it has been so good for my soul.
It has been a wonderful life.
I only say this because I am in the midst of a cancer scare. Four suspicious spots on my skin. I went through a lovely Christmas day and wondered, "Will this be my last?" I walked in the glorious sunshine and said, "If it is, I submit to Your will, Lord. It has been nothing but a beautiful life that I am so grateful for."
The next day gave me time to think and grieve a bit. Not that it is cancer, but I will not know until after January 5th the result of the two biopsies. Then I have to wait until January 29th for the other two biopsies. Then I have to wait for the results of those. I think it is not dying that is often hard, but it is the waiting to know.
So, I had to sort through the waiting yesterday, and I woke up this morning and dove into the Word. It has given me peace in the waiting. "Do not trouble yourself about tomorrow for tomorrow has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34). So I won't know for a while, but I will live each day as I have in the past; drawing closer to my Maker, who I just may meet sooner rather than later. :)
Actually, I feel like we have met. I think I am knowing Him more and more. This is only because He has given me this hunger to know Him. Thank You!
Well, I have seven more minutes, but I think I am done. There is great peace in the waiting. No use worrying about tomorrow because, you know, tomorrow never comes!
It has been a wonderful life.
I only say this because I am in the midst of a cancer scare. Four suspicious spots on my skin. I went through a lovely Christmas day and wondered, "Will this be my last?" I walked in the glorious sunshine and said, "If it is, I submit to Your will, Lord. It has been nothing but a beautiful life that I am so grateful for."
The next day gave me time to think and grieve a bit. Not that it is cancer, but I will not know until after January 5th the result of the two biopsies. Then I have to wait until January 29th for the other two biopsies. Then I have to wait for the results of those. I think it is not dying that is often hard, but it is the waiting to know.
So, I had to sort through the waiting yesterday, and I woke up this morning and dove into the Word. It has given me peace in the waiting. "Do not trouble yourself about tomorrow for tomorrow has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34). So I won't know for a while, but I will live each day as I have in the past; drawing closer to my Maker, who I just may meet sooner rather than later. :)
Actually, I feel like we have met. I think I am knowing Him more and more. This is only because He has given me this hunger to know Him. Thank You!
Well, I have seven more minutes, but I think I am done. There is great peace in the waiting. No use worrying about tomorrow because, you know, tomorrow never comes!
Wednesday, December 24, 2014
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
2014 Reading Wrap Up
How many books did you read and did
you meet your own personal goal?
My personal goal was 52 books, and I just made it this year. This is the fewest books I have read in years, but I am trying sit less to keep my back healthy and the weight I lost two years ago off. I already sit a long time, as I am editing my Bible Book Club blog and taking it off of the internet and putting the posts in my word processor. (I am reading my “soon to become” eBooks, but I did not read as many of other people's books.) I will be done with editing in early 2015 and can get back to regular reading.
It was also the first year since 2003 that I was not working through some "list" of best books to read. It was great to read free of "lists"!
I have hyper-linked all the books that I mention in this post to their reviews that I posted in 2014.
· Most thrilling, oh my goodness, I
want to read it again, unputdownable book?
God
Guides by Mary Geegh.
This book is life-changing for anyone who wants a
dynamic relationship with God. I recommend it to everyone, and I give it
away like candy now. It is the simple concept of listening to God and obeying
Him, but I love that it communicates this through real-life stories of a person
who lived in India for over 30 years! She also recommends a “listen and obey”
time every day where your WRITE DOWN what God tells you. Since I easily forget,
I have gotten into this habit, and it has really helped me. I recommended
this book to two different friends that each ordered 100. One friend had given
all 100 away within two months.
· Top
5 favorite stories (old and new)?
(I reread some of my favorite books
this year. So I will separate them into favorite OLD and favorite NEW!)
OLD
NEW
1. God Guides
· Least favorite book?
It was sent to me so that I could
do an early review, but it was so laborious that it took me over a year to
read. I FORCED myself to finish it. It was very dry. It could have been so much
more exciting than it was.
· New author
discovery? New genre discovery?
Firoozeh Dumas writes a wonderful
memoir called Funny in Farsi about life in American after moving here from Iran. I will read another one by her.
Malcolm Gladwell also gets a shout out. I had read Outliers years ago but read two other books by him this year:
David and Goliath: Underdogs, Misfits, & the Art of Battling Giants and Tipping Point: How Little Things Make a Big Difference. His books always fascinate and inform me. The guy is brilliant.
· What
countries or centuries did you explore?
I explored The Netherlands and
Germany during World War II in The Hiding Place and by actually going to Corrie’s hometown of Haarlam, Netherlands
and throughout Germany in May/June!
· Share a
favorite character, story, quote or cover
Betsie Ten Boom from The Hiding Place is my favorite
character in all the books I read. Her shining example of Christ’s love in the
midst of the suffering of a concentration camp during World War II inspires me.
Two of my favorite quotes by her:
"His
will is your hiding place"
"There
is no pit so deep that He [God] is not deeper still."
· One
book that touched you – (I changed it to one book for each category!)
Made me . . .
Laugh: Funny
in Farsi by Firoozeh Dumas
Cry: The Hiding Place by Corrie Ten Boom
Sing and Dance: Messiah Meditations by ME!
· Are you ready to do it all over
again?
Yes, it
keeps me accountable to keep on reading.
· Do you have any goals to check out
different genres or authors, read translated books or stories in another
language for 2015?
I only read two fiction books this
year! I read them because my classics book club was reading them, but I had to
drop out for a season and am looking forward to going back to it in July for
this reason. I really miss my fiction! Two books I have had on my list for
years are Our Mutual Friend by
Charles Dickens and Resurrection by
Leo Tolstoy.
Here is the entire 2014 List with Links to each review:
Here is the entire 2014 List with Links to each review:
2014 Books
JANUARY
FEBRUARY
MARCH
12. Tipping Point
APRIL
MAY
JUNE
24. Agent ZigZag
JULY
28. Eat, Pray, Love
AUGUST
OCTOBER
36. Funny in Farsi
NOVEMBER
42. Finding God
DECEMBER
48. The Hiding Place
50. Messiah Meditations (Does it count that I wrote it?)
52. Where Love Is, There Is God Also by Leo Tolstoy
This is three short gospel stories by Tolstoy. I bought this book years ago, and I vaguely remember reading the first one to my boys and their two friends around Christmas, but I had not read the other two stories.
I found each of the stories at librivox.org and have linked the titles to the recordings:
"Where Love is, There is God Also" is a precious story about a cobbler who encounters Christ. Perfect to read on the eve of Christmas Eve!
"The Three Hermits" is a story about prayer.
"What Men Live By" is the longest of the three, but it hooked me in. I love the librivox narrator on this one too!
I found each of the stories at librivox.org and have linked the titles to the recordings:
"Where Love is, There is God Also" is a precious story about a cobbler who encounters Christ. Perfect to read on the eve of Christmas Eve!
"The Three Hermits" is a story about prayer.
"What Men Live By" is the longest of the three, but it hooked me in. I love the librivox narrator on this one too!
51. Spiritual Leadership by J. Oswald Sanders
I once had an ancient copy of this book, but I can no longer find it and think it went away in the "move to Malaysia" purge of 1997. I read it back in the 80's and forgot about it. I do not remember being thoroughly impressed even though it was highly recommended.
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| Read about the author at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Oswald_Sanders |
I would say this is probably the quintessential book about leadership come out of an overflow of our relationship with Christ. Our motto in training people continues to be, "You cannot give what you do not have," and this is precisely the undercurrent of this whole book.
I like how they have updated it to include women in the equation and give footnotes with biographical information about the people Sanders is referring to as he wrote this book in 1967.
For more details about its contents and thorough review, I refer you here:
Revisiting Oswald Sanders' "Spiritual Leadership"
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