Friday Freewrite Fifteen on The Spiritual Exercises

I am setting my timer for a fifteen-minute freewrite. I think it has been over a month since I did a Friday freewrite. So, I am due. 

This month has been rich. A month ago, I had finished up all my groups who went through the Spiritual Exercises of Ignatius. That was rich. I learned a lot, and one of the things I learned that it is better if I put together the groups. The group I put together was the one that jelled the best was the one where no one knew each other. Go figure. I think when someone else asks a person to come to this group with this stranger, there is an attachment that doesn't happen to the leader. I don't know. I also think that four of the people over two of the groups were just not ready to take the Exercises, and when other things got in the way, it was not a priority, and the Exercises really need to be a priority. Two of them were just not used to any kind of deep meditation in scripture, and the other two were just doing it because they wanted to spend time with the person who invited them. Other things were more important like podcasts and books by famous Christian authors. It is hard for many people to just sit with God and listen to what he says to them. 

So, I don't fault them for not being ready, but I really want people who are 100% ready to plunge into this deeply. It is a different way of looking at Scripture and if you are just looking at these familiar passages in the way you have always done, it will seem boring to have the same stories again. (And Ignatius had so many times where you REPEAT things!)

So this next year, I have four eager and lovely people. It was neat to hear how God drew each of them. One was off the recommendation of her sister-in-law who was one of the people who was wholeheartedly in it this year. Another was off the recommendation of her husband who is a coworker of mine in the training and supervising of spiritual directors. Another is one who I trained as a director when I interned with Marty and Sandy Boller  (Shout out to this couple from The Contemplative Activist who train directors with an Internal Family Systems flavor.) and went through a shorter form of the Exercises called the 18th Annotation (10 weeks with Sustainable Faith). The last person is someone who was at a convent telling someone how she really wanted to learn about being a Contemplative in Action, and the person (was it a nun?) said, "Well, you know that that part of the Spiritual Exercises?" This woman had heard of them, but she didn't know much about them other than she knew I did them with people. I have been supervising her as she has trained to become a spiritual director with Deepen-Sent Well. So, she knew God wanted her to be involved. 

I also asked dear C, who was one of the first (maybe the first) people I led through the 19th Annotation of the Spiritual Exercises (I had led someone through the 18th earlier that year, but it was greatly modified because this person had not spent time with God in 18 years, but it was a requirement for them for their spiritual direction training - I know, not spent time with God for 18 years, and they were going to become a director? It was an amazing TRANSFORMATION for her though. So, I am so glad I did it with her and learned so much by leading people through it who are even reluctant and resistant, but I digress.)

So, it will be one group of four people in the 19th, and C and I will lead. That's it (since I am starting a School of Spiritual Direction and need to not overwhelm myself with the Spiritual Exercises like last year - I might even have C lead the group through them the next year since it is a requirement for people in my school to do, at least, the 18th Annotation). C will be so excellent to intern with me. Some of the times, I will have us break up into two groups of two so we can go deeper with people. I think that will be so good for C and for me. 

In a way, I wish I could have an intern for the group I will be training in direction next year. If that sixth spot does not get filled, I might just ask T. She is so ready to start training directors. She is the bomb.

I love how I have these great.

Oh, there goes my timer. BYE BYE!